Thought Disorder

Saturday, December 31, 2005

SUDDENLY there was this pang of sorrow that overwhelmed me. ahhhhhh i need a new mp3! think i'll save for zen neeon. it seems like i'm missing out on on the ab-fab songs and i feel so...utterly depressed partly because didum is gone and i didn't offer my most valuable precious care when it was still around.

think sometimes when things/people are around, i don't value them as priced possessions. and when they're gone do i realise their extreme importance.

11:06 PM

2006, a brand new starting? everything seems to be brand new in the coming year, which is technically tomorrow. it sounds extra weird. tomorrow i'll wake up to a new year. what difference does it make?

one difference it makes, and i'm realising it now: i'll no longer be able to see amelia in dhs anymore.

i wish i was in vjc too!

like she always reiterates to her mum that she ISN'T in vjc until the 1st of january 06. a few days back she started addressing dhs as "your school". i'm so not accustomed to hearing that.

not that i'm being sensitive or anything similar to that, it's just that...unfathomable feeling surging within me.

that feeling will pass? i seriously don't know.

even if we make a pact to always ball together whenever we're free, i doubt we can ever find the time to do so. like, i once said i'd return to hips to visit often but now, i don't ever wanna go back actually. this is a benign fact.

digress. i'm going to spend my very first day of 2006 with a couple of new friends i made a few days back. and it's gonna be bballing. :D my most favourite pastime on a new day on a new year. i could sacrifice all of my undone homework just to play one mintute of bball.

i'm leaving my homework aside.

never enjoyed the holidays this much before. usually by this time of the vacation, i've already completed all of my work and will tend to laugh when i spot my peers rushing. today, it's me. it feels queer that i'm not getting cold feet about what to do when my new teachers extort my homework from me.

uh, i think i'll be able to complete english only.

by the way, thanks amelia, and occasionally audrey plus the bball team, for spicing up this really long two months' worth of break.

twas very good. X)

anyway,

i don't get it. humans are officially weird. I LOVE TO BURST EGOS BUT I DON'T HAVE THE HEART TO. i hate stories that are so far away from fairytales. way too far.

stop getting those illusions. stop that arrogance. stop this dirty work. stop harbouring stupid thoughts that xxxxxxxxxyyyyyyyyyyyzzzzzzzzz. (no pun intended)

okay.

5:15 PM

Friday, December 30, 2005

yesterday amelia phoned and she filled me in about the minute details of the vjc orientation. it undoubtedly looks more comfortable and fun-filled than dhs. ahhhh okay i feel like i'm enclosed within the sprawling cheena compounds of dhs, for another long, mundane 4 years. anyway, i can regret no longer because it's fixed that i'm staying for dhp. worst thing that strikes me like hot iron is, i don't even get to go to a jc and enjoy their rocking benefits (of being more of a mature adult and stuffs like that). it's just, dunman high school forever. which means, secondary school. ok i'm so deprived. we're all miserably deprived of our young adulthood.

this morning went to play bball at hougang cc for a while, and amelia had to leave for day 2 orientation so i left for school. got my language arts books save for twelfth night or something. balled at school for a while as well. headed home and decided to play bball at the court downstairs.

i think my skin absorbs the scorching hot sunlight easily and ps, i do not get heatstroke THAT easily.

anyway, i saw the sec-1s-to-be at school today, purchasing their books. don't be overly excited young ones you're so gonna regret this. first day of school you turn up with a sling bag and the SCs are going to approach you to kindly inform you of the fact that we don't, and will never allow i reckon, sling bags. that's when you start to be deprived of everything.

time flies so easily. i think i'll be, finally, graduating from dhs with a raised eyebrow very soon, i hope!

as for now, doubts are forming in my mind about my new class. ok yar i think i'll get to either hate it/love it/be neutral about it. that's beside the point because i'm not getting anywhere with my homework and i know i'm going to be in hot soup man. OFF TO HOMEWORK.

12:21 PM

Thursday, December 29, 2005

am i like always the observing bystander. uh maybe my occupation is to listen to stories from the human world. stories that comprises of sweet endings bad endings complaints happy scenarios etc. worst is that sometimes i disguise my interest for stories. some stories are fictional made-ups while some mislead me so much i seem to be drifting off into my own galaxy. an-ti-re-tar-dates.

humans are trying to prove something.

okay i get the big vague point. i've just gotta suck in every detail/crap/nonsense/interesting fact that is presented to me, really oh-so-nicely packaged but when i open the pretty package the thing just explodes.

pop.

uh ok. everyone's just way superior and i'm just the absorbing machine. are you happy now?

*waves white flag*

pardon the emokid in me. another alter ego. but this is reality man and i hate it. anyway, today was coolios. finally went to play bball but for only a short span of time. ultimate sadness. then we made some new friends. ultimate coolios. saw the ngee ann poly guy amelia was talking about this morning? or perhaps "school grass" if you translate it directly from chinese. my chinese is pathetic. ok we tailed him (and his gf) for a while and it's relatively coolios. watched SHUTTER at amelia's house and it's coolios too. i've just discovered my hidden talent of being emotionless when watching horror films. irony of the day: being emo just scant moments ago and being non-emo when watching a horror movie.

just turn off the sounds and you'll have n utterly crazy horrendous laugh.

bubble gums are fun. especially when you have a whale of time blowing them while watching horror. i'm so weird for a human.

and i've just realised how much i do not appreciate 1A 04's class tee. truthfully.

ps: if you want chocs/sweets/gums, head to amelia's cos she has never ending stocks of them.

pps: watch out for the dog.

1:50 AM

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

people have mouths but they don't realise the actual usage. wow shucks, thanks for making me extremely annoyed. this annoyance was the worstest i felt in purple moons.

uh okay i'm utterly dissed.

do i know you. no. do i know you. no.

i bought 1/5 of gifts. narnia was much better than hpgf! perhaps it's because i haven't, and am not going to, read the seven books of narnia. well the twists were so well-done! the spoiler was that the ending was abrupt but still good enough for a proper ending. do you realise that most movies have an abrupt ending that leaves you half hanging on the window ledge. in fact, i think even in tv serials and books, it happens too. okay maybe with a few exceptions. hpgf is one good book that fills you in thoroughly but the movie is like, plah. big-time spoiler. sad case.

and audrey keeps reminding me of the FACTOID that we're back to school and in for a nutty class next week. don't tell me. i live in my own galaxy. without retardates.

12:04 AM

Monday, December 26, 2005

some things can't be helped. i can't bear to flatten egos it's such an evil deed. it's also arduous a task to inflate egos. because that just isn't felicia. can't i be neutral.

i miss bball! i miss my mateys! gotta possess ultimate endurance for one more bloody week. 3G OWNAGE. out for the entire day tomorrow(: it certainly does feel queer that amelia's no longer going to be there.):

11:48 PM

Sunday, December 25, 2005

it's over and it's official. good day to you. merry christmas chinks. my greatest accomplishment for the entire holidays is today- because i have finally embarked on my homework. one crummy newspaper article topped off with a crummy review. okay uh so according to intricate calculations, i'll have to complete at least 4 articles per day to save my skin. this is absolutely anguishing.

plus i have completely no idea how i'm going to finish the war essay. oh omgz i see light at the end of the tunnel! yay the internet is ever so efficient. :D

1:39 PM

Saturday, December 24, 2005

i'm feeling mostly irritated now. itching and having the flu, again.

panadol doesn't offer much help.

that's why i say i can't eat too much sweet stuffs. what a sweet disaster.

uh yes it's christmas in no time now! my sincere apologies to those who sent christmas greetings via sms. don't reckon i can afford to reply you all because i'm truthfully running outta sms to spare this season unlike previous years. i've become so much of an unsentimental person cos i no longer do cards nor send any sms greetings already. change is quite undoubtedly inevitable. and i'm plain lazy anyway.

and boy do i miss amelia loads while she's away! come home soon!

sadly, guys i haven't managed to get any presents yet, but soon! i'm totally broke because i seem to have paid alot of money to co and miscellaneous things. yeah i need total funding man. besides, i don't have wonderful ideas for presents. i always don't.

my mum got a new fcuk tee that looked absolutely flamboyant for me today when i picked it out. and an adidas track pants which is, uh not too bad. she claims this is preparation for my co trip next year and level camp as well. so thoughtful de worx!

the reason why i'm itching severely now is that there's been a sudden flood of chocolates at home. my eccentric sis brought a packet of really tempting chocolates home from work and my mum's just purchased a few boxes today. plus yesterday i gave in to crime when i bought two bars of chocolate from 7eleven with jiahui and happily ate it on the bus journey back to school.

okay i'm so guilty. sinned! shall promise to cease and ban choclate/sweets/junkies/fastfood intake from now. miserable.

11:53 PM

i just wanna say...

have a real wonderful day, to you especially. uh i feel like i'm suffocating over here because i've got alot to say to you but it'll just probably get stuck there forever. AHH. there's no liberation to this because it's only a history of a short yet beautifully perfect dream.

the person blogging here is not felicia. it's felicia's cranky alter ego. go away alter ego. go away nostalgia. and hey really, have a fabulous day but i just can't be there anymore though i yearn to be.

12:31 AM

Friday, December 23, 2005

sweet liberation.

sweet but temporary liberation. no fun alrighty. just disband the entire nigga thing so i, plus some other deperate victims who want to be liberated, can finally be liberated forever. duh. i hate it a million million millions de worx.

retardates please naff off.

uh do you know that the thought scares me that i'm going to a new class with ~~retardates~~ strange strangers in about a week's time.

wished it was just liberation every single day. and worse still i haven't done any homework nor christmas shopping so it's like extremely bad a thing.

i like the fact that i'm gradually losing interest in the computer. byebye computer.

11:22 PM

HI FELICIA IS BACK. liberation is just a mere half day away! cheerios. (:

let's play pretend so today is 21 december 2005.

okay so we had an oh-so-successful bbq at cindy's house.

before they even started cooking we were so interested in the swimming pool already. so we waddled through the shallow areas but i got myself half wet anyway. fun shit.

i loved the swimming pool at the condo it's extremely cool shit! there're water polo goals and a basketball rim (with a nice net too!) that you can dunk easily. coolios. then there's a water blasting area at the other side to play as well. wow fantastic swimming pool facilities. pj and i saw this angmoh teen boy dunking with a, eh rugby-shaped-but-super-light-can-float-on-water-ball?! don't know how to phrase it. but it was like, woah he just dunked it in and it looked uncanny to what i always watch on tv- those nba guys dunking. the really wow-ing effect was there man.

now we have the damnit-successful part. they (not me, i was just stoning around initially) had problems getting the fire started and it took them really ages to get a miserable pathetic fire going to only cook a few corns and half-cooked chicken wings. the chicken wings were still bloody. and since we're still in the bird flu season let's just make it a resolution to cook our poultry well. i was bloody hungry, and i believed everyone else was too, plus we were super impatient for the food to be served. to stave off the hunger, we had some chips and slacked around while some hardworking ass was over at the pit trying to ensure the food's cooked, the fire's still dokay. unfortunately, it started pouring so...it was a big catastrophe in a small little condominium. we all ducked for cover and ran back into cindy's house.

we ended up cooking in the kitchen. IRONY ONE: when we got in and dried ourselves the rain abated. IRONY TWO: we had so much of an easier time getting the food ready in the kitchen rather than waiting hours for the idiotic food to be bbqed.

it was too much of a huge great wonderful success.

the next time there's a bbq, i'll make sure that i arrive when everything's ready- the fire's going well and the food's ready to be devoured.

my main purpose is just to fill my tummy with food.

zokay. i'm so frankly practical.

dunk low pictures that caught my eye tomorrow after the hugely-welcomed liberation finally dawns on the world.

12:03 AM

Monday, December 19, 2005

FOUR DAYS TO LIBERATION.

11:39 PM

some pubescent girl who looked relatively geeky i espied today was donning the nike dunks of my dreams! and it completely looked horrid on her! hence my decision to look for another colour that i'll take a special liking to. :D

i'm thorougly nocturnal. nocturnal blood courses through my veins. just like my dad. i'm taking way too much after him. bad sign.

truthfully, i have absolutely no idea what to get my closer peers for christmas. CAN YOU GUYS DROP ME AN INKLING. or you all probably don't want your presents. ok yay i'm better off that way. shopping is so not felicia! it's rather tedious and your legs get all aching from all that walking (probably the entire stretch of orchard road) but actually in retrospect, it's quite enjoyable and fun! what a crazy contradicting statement. i like looking at top-notch designer brands because they're so lavish you'll just get killed the moment you decide to splurge your whole life savings on purchasing them. it's just that insane.

i better turn in, because there's stinky co tomorrow and i'm planning to go earlier to play bball myself! (the plan always backfires though)

1:54 AM

Sunday, December 18, 2005

the nike dunks somewhat resembles this. orange is glamour.

note:this skin is merely temporary.

THERE'S THIS FRANTICISM WHEN I START TO GRADUALLY START TO STOP PLAYING BBALL.

12:45 PM

i saw the pair of nike dunks i liked today! orange and grey absolutely go so well. OMG i'll be so glad if you got me those dunks. (: and i wanna get a dri-fit puma tee. puma tees compliments everything so well! there was this striking hot pink (like the puma bag i'm carrying right now-everyone says BIMBO and you're crazy that's so unlike you man) puma overall i liked alot which costs the same as my bag. today my mum, being ever so strangely nice and generous, got me a really eye-catching but exorbitant boardshorts from GUESS. :D

and i saw shannon! was that him or not.

oh and tll sucked really bad today because a replacement teacher came in and she's such a total demanding ass. everyone was sniggering when she came into the class. she's like, class i'm largely disturbed because you all are clicking your pens please stop it there's no need to click your pens because you have to use them throughout the lesson. her lesson is annoyingly boring by the way. she combs every single word in the comprehension passage in ultimate elaborate detail. and unfortunately, we have her as our teacher next week again! go away vexatious imbecile.

I FEEL THIS SURGING ZEAL FOR BBALL. X)

12:40 AM

Saturday, December 17, 2005

exactly sixteen days to 3G'06. seriously, i'm not looking forward to it. i have sixteen days to finish an avalanche of homework. 32 english articles, 2 chinese articles, chinese book review, math (?).

high time i should start worrying and cease frolicking.

i got my books today! coolios. language arts seems like a deep-seated subject. been waiting to pick up george orwell's 1984! the library has it in a rather old ancient edition, and it definitely doesn't look any appealling. oh yes i'm quite confused because we only take a math. where the hell is e math? do we not take it? ab-fab. and we finally don't require gay chinese workbooks.

dokay. i hope dhp won't be heavy going. awwww. 4 more unfortunate years in dhs. 1 more in kallang. 2 in buona vista. then back to the new premises. let's just suffocate in our sleep. can you actually believe there're people out there excited about coming? you can just prove yourself wrong. ZZZ.

today was boring. the whole of next week is to be drowned in boredom. co stinks. (i solemnly hope that nobody reads this but i'm not going to tell a blatant lie that i absolutely love co. )

i love co worxxx. however, mummy taught me not to lie.

today's good achievement: felicia has finally decided that neopets is boring shit and decides to spend lesser time on it.

cindy and mary say different things. no, actually mary is the opposite of everything. she says i've grown more fair! WHAT A FUNNY JOKE. please laugh. whenever cindy spots me, she'll go, you grew darker again! hell no i don't really realise it. I'M NOT DARK. neither am i exceptionally dark. i reckon i'm average, just like you just like me. :D

okay what so do you remember me? NO. and i'm lying.
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU. (x

12:14 AM

Friday, December 16, 2005

SHIT FELICIA IS BEING TOTALLY NOSTALGIC AGAIN. *smacks ultimate sense into myself*

AHHH but i can't deny the fact. GO AWAY FACTOID. GO AWAY THOUGHTS. i'm going to brainwash myself. necessity. GO AWAY GO AWAY.

1:29 AM

Thursday, December 15, 2005

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS...

1. YOU!:) (because it's only a song name!)
2. that pair of adidas flipflops that costs a whopping 35!
3. zinc bag! :D
4. nice sleek glam phone!
5. ZEN VISION:M in lime green!
6. nike dunks! (x

christmas is nearing. the holidays are coming to an end soon. depressing thought. why? it means that i have to really rush crazily through my homework. it marks the start of a new year in dhs with a brand new class with weirdo people i don't know. it means floods of stress and homework and tests are coming back, soon. ):

i was telling qian, this has been the most slack but the most fun holiday ever.

because i don't get haunted by nightmares of homework devouring me.

yes i'm neglecting my homework. and there's a new gay assignment i just found out. 34 PIECES OF MATH. oh-so-nice.

hate. hates. hated. hatred. hateful. hatefully.

my sis always ruins my entire cheerful day. sod off. hate you.

I'M TRUTHFULLY GOING TO COMMENCE ON MY HOMEWORK TODAY. it's either struggle or perish. other than that, i'm glad that feltay's campaign slogan has taken a change for the better. anyway i'm going to put her previous no-longer-existing campaign aside and mug.

getting my books tomorrow i reckon. qian i want to play bball with you! XD

7:24 PM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

THE EXCITING DAY TURNED OUT TO BE NOT-SO-EXCITING.

OM's bball outing. wednesday. the day has finally arrived and i'm finally at home in front of the computer after tiring rounds of bball.

uhm actually OM's mission failed more or less because feltay and mx didn't interact with the guys! amelia and i are the bystanders to get the conversation going. aren't we?

like usual, i was the earliest (because my dad gave me a lift there). went to get my panadol cold tablets first and then i headed to macs to have a simple breakfast. no hotcakes this time amelia. so practically everyone was late. feltay instructed yanliang to find me at macs. but i thought i saw kelvin. it was him anyway. then yl came in, he strolled past me. and kelvin came in again. ditto. they're officially blind creatures. i was trying hard to contain my laughter when i saw them bumping into each other and wandering off to somewhere else. uh so i went back to the mrt to pick amelia and the rest up.

we kinda lost the guys so we had to call them (using feltay's phone!!).

i made the call.

kelvin was crazily shouting over the phone. he was like, "YO!!!" and i was appalled.

mad gay.

yup so dokay we went to the court behind bishan cc. TODAY'S EVALUATION: NOT FUN. i'd prefer playing alone with amelia. and the court sucks bad. no net no nothing. kovan cc still has the best net apart from the courts at dhs. uh seriously they're not bad. kelvin does good layups and yl, good at dribbling. anyway feltay and mx just stoned around. no sun for feltay to tan herself. the sun's not in favour of you man.

SIGH I WISHED THE VENUE WAS KOVAN. i'm probably never going back to that court anymore.

amelia ate the christmas present she gave me! i don't really fancy chocolates anyway because if i have too much of them i'll start to itch. oh yeah and yl has a really gay ringtone wor. it's 'right here waiting' and it's 100% gay wor.

someone lost horse and still owes us each an ice cream cone.

we didn't play much. then we went for lunch. the guys went off. thank god we didn't have delifrance again. everyone role-modelled me and ate mcflurry which i've been craving for since saturday. i had this large coke and it took me quite long to finish it. uh the girl at the counter was super friendly! :D and kelvin was sitting there eating alone so we invited him over to sit with us twice in a row but he declined! what a gay.

yep so we went back and played with several P6 kids. REMINISCE THE P6 DAYS. amelia left. feltay and mx left. then lastly, after a while, i left.

and now, i'm at home.
WHAT A GAY ENTRY.

i hate feltay's campaign!

5:16 PM

Monday, December 12, 2005

you're like, still wandering in my mind.

today's joke: peijean is the only pro person who can tame me wor. *LOUD LAUGH*

JERKS JERKS JERKS. BITCHES BITCHES BITCHES.
despicable imbeciles.
a 9 month plot to ruin the heart of an innocent girl. how despicable can you get?
just like in the tv drama on channel 8, that bitch xiaoqian snatches jianyi away from yoyo. that's like plain shit. xiaoqian is a bitch. there's absolutely nothing attractive about her.
may God curse your lives and may you be haunted by a million nightmares.

let's just live for the future because we don't know what good things will happen.
the past and the present is not in my future.

i'm your knight and you'll be just that safe there.

9:15 PM

Sunday, December 11, 2005

the day was basically spent on the addictive computer. homework status: abandoned.

what else can i do? i feel chair-ridden and lethargic. save me.
(digress)
wednesday is crawling towards me.
the tv misleads me really often. what you see on tv has a small possibility to happen in actual life.
MUST LOOK AHEAD IN LIFE AND NOT RETRACE MY (WRONG AND SINFUL) STEPS.
(end of digress)

yesterday's irony: i'm the knight and you're the princess.

i need to play bball. wednesday please run towards me.

10:00 PM

TOMORROW (LATER) IS HOMEWORK DAY. one day at home means homework day. homework means 32 english articles with reviews, chinese storybook with reviews, 2 chinese newspaper cuttings with 500-WORD REFLECTION each and my micro writing! you know they're out to murder us. have mercy dude. christmas is in like, 2 weeks!

and i have one week to complete all of my homework. mission impossible.
p.s. my secondary 3 books are still waiting for me at the bookshop.

seriously, i think i have stage fright. never ever thought of that because i thought i was just like the average plain jane who would undoubtedly be a little anxious before any speech. the current situation portrays me shivering in fear when my turn gradually approaches. omg.

when i go up to deliver my speech, i started swaying like it's part of my subconscious mind.
my braces hinder my pronounciation and enunciation.
speed is my middle name. i chiong to finish the entire script, leaving the audience totally dazed.
hey it's all over and i rush frantically to my seat, heaving a sigh of relief.

damn hell.

anyway, y'know guys are jerks. not a single soul is good or harbours any good intentions. hello? one day you can just watch how girls/women can rise to power and truimph over you. we'll trample over you all to make you cry. oh and ZHABOR is not a very polite or nice word. i think perhaps TARPORH will fit the description of guys. how about that? SCUMBAGS.

i'm a temporary aficionado of neopets now. since there's nothing much to do. and i cannot sign into maplestory after neglecting it for months.

32 english articles with 80-100 word review for each article.
i wished i could do some magic to solve my problem(s). not very pragmatic though.

1:55 AM

Friday, December 09, 2005

makes sense but i'm rubbing nonsensical sense into myself if i really transform my words into action. reason is i've been thinking it's not ever possible to ever salvage it. it's an out-of-the-world matter and i can't bring myself to do it for nutsake.

waiting is painful and i absolutely abhor it. why do i always wind up waiting an hour or two for people to arrive because of whatsoever reason they're late? why is it that when i'm late by merely five or ten minutes, people will have black clouds surrounding their faces? gawd, i don't know is this fair or unfair. even if i'm annoyed i'll just rant to another party via sms and flash a "oh-uh-never-mind-lah" smile to the latecomer. truth is, it's annoying and i bet you won't deny this annoying fact. okay so i'm jaded of dealing with all these nonsense.

ahem and i'll like to say, i really cannot wait for another second to quit co and finally end all my hell-co-days. don't see any valid reason for me to stay put in there. can't quite convince myself that i still do have a microscopic passion for co because it's entirely untrue. period.

i hate school because i have this sudden pang that i don't belong in that crazyhell school which drives us all nuts.

and i was like thinking, hey maybe i'll change my mind someday.

10:42 PM

Thursday, December 08, 2005

my dad's annoying me. maplestory's annoying me. i'm so annoyed.

32/200
01. bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. swam with wild dolphins
03. climbed a mountain
04. taken a ferrari for a test drive
05. been inside the great pyramid
06. held a tarantula
07. taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. said 'I love you' and meant it
09. hugged a tree
10. done a striptease
11. bungee jumped
12. visited paris
13. watched a lightning storm at sea
14. stayed up all night long and watch the sun rise
15. seen the northern lights
16. gone to a huge sports game
17. walked the stairs to the top of leaning tower of pisa
18. grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. touched an iceberg
20. slept under the stars
21. changed a baby's diaper
22. taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. watched a meteor shower
24. gotten drunk on champagne
25. given more than you can afford to charity
26. looked up the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo (a fake tattoo)
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a cheque
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once? - More than thrice?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a seizure
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ... and gotten 86ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested

mission accomplished sweetie. well done.

1:12 PM

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

the arcade sucks bad because it rips me dollar by dollar, leaving me penniless. okay so i'm so noob at them because i'm never good at them and that's crapola. on the other hand amelia's looks more hopeful than me. i'm just not good.

okay so this morning, or perhaps afternoon, we went to play bball again! (: it was pretty fun like usual because we're so much of bball fanatics. then it got hotter and hotter. amelia has this AA lollipop that's from australia but it isn't exactly a lollipop. it just takes the shape of a lollipop and it's definitely a huge one which takes a sweet tooth to finish it.

uh and she left it in my bag while we were at the arcade.

if i were her i would admire it like how a child lusts over a lolli first because it's so pretty you wouldn't bear to eat it.

then we went to ps and had our not-really-fair share of arcade. i got pulled to the drums thing and then the money was slotted in before i could even react. didn't even know how to play the game so i was practically hitting rubbish out of everything. so i was like, huh what the hell how on earth do you play this man and i was quite annoyed. amelia thought i was super pissed but uh, i wasn't. there was this gun game which made me even more annoyed.

gawd, i forgot to add in this ultimately crucial part! we were strolling towards ps from dhoby ghaut station and we got approached by two guys doing charity. maybe you could call them hunks haha. they just stopped us in our tracks and rambled on and on about donating money. the first guy who spoke was still an average speaker but when the other guy opened his mouth i was trying to catch his words because he spoke super fast with swallowed words. then amelia was like, are you from bedok north and he was like, yar how'd you know. uh then he started guessing our schools. all of the guesses were so unpractical. i guess the rest can be left unexplained.

amelia was super happy after that.

ok, except for the drumming part. and the cursed arcade.

it was late so we both left for our respective places. i saw sherilyn in the mrt! anyway, i'm still doubtful if i really saw ___ because i didn't really have a good look. my mum passed her jap so she's on a temporary blip of insane happiness today.

that zinc bag is going to be mine. (:

9:46 PM

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

you know something?

we're just a short step away from success. sweet succes. bitter aftermath. oh well.

i love bball.

11:19 PM

i'm drained after doing absolutely nothing and that's so weird.

STILL CANNOT FIND THE FOOT PUMP man. irritating. and this horrible realisation struck me today: i can't make it next thurs. shit. i wanna go cycling so badly, unless i cut erhu and math tuition which is a no-no. damn it.

junling spotted me at the library today. strangely weird. but anyway, hello long time no see i keep bumping into peopla ya see.

yeah and i'm itchy for bball. WHERE'S AMELIA EH WHY YOU NEVER REPLY MY MESSAGES. please don't tell me you left for camp and hence commencing my days of boredom.

8:06 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005

that's another exam screwed. i don't care.

sunday is today and today is sunday but it doesn't feel like it. (whoops sorry you might think i'm crazy because it's technically monday here. i have habits of blogging at midnight.) think it's because there's no tuitions at all today, which is strangely weird.

i don't have any idea what on earth to blog about. you might as well call this a filler post just to ensure my blog doesn't plunge into the grave.

suddenly i developed this phobia of talking on msn. maybe it's due to my long time MIA (as described by someone) but actually, i was just appearing offline observing the msn traffic.

12:43 AM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

sometimes i forget that my name is felicia and i'm actually still existing in this world.
sometimes i forget that feltay's name is felicia, exactly the same way as how mine is spelt.
sometimes i forget that next year i won't get to see amelia in dhs anymore.
sometimes i forget that my class is, in fact, 3G next year and i'm a secondary 3 student already.

how time flies.
how people change and evolve.

i think i'm starting to cease to exist in this world.

y'know, kaoji was horrible today but i deserve it, anyway. p.s. zilch passion for that nigga instrument. nada. p.p.s. i didn't buck up when i first started learning the basics anyway.

my mum keeps reeling on my raw nerves (about JLPT) and i started to hurl really frank remarks at her but now i'm guilty i wanna take them all back. sometimes i think i don't think before i speak yeah. such a bullhead. uh, i want to study for tomorrow's exam but i'm so, lackadaisical and sleepy. maybe i'll revise them tomorrow morning. i'll just probably throw side glances at my ancient notes (that i made during the EOYs period) and try to refresh those rusty information hidden in some chamber in there. but, i'm not even aware of what specific topics are going to be tested. shouldn't have even signed up in the first place. could have saved me tons of trouble and money.

INFATUATION. X))))))))))

that was quite random because this [particular] idea/image keeps zonking into my head.

aww. shucks. :)

10:48 PM

Friday, December 02, 2005

the hand pump doesn't work for the bicycle wheels so i think i better get a new foot pump. (thanks to the thief who stole it. well done.)

yay kaoji is just tomorrow.

i'm going to screw it no matter what so, hey no big deal. will only invite unnecessary commotion and gossip from this particular person. you all know who.

today early morning went to play bball again wor. it was for a short while only but twas quite fun. i was thinking, next year we're going to own the sec3 bball interclass. HAHAHA.

did i mention about homework? ecstastic about it because it's not touched at all. what a horror realisation dokay. stuck in my head for such a long time. i miss didum like c-r-a-z-y. this is a newfound realisation. hell yeah. it feels like i'm missing out on all the good songs (that describe my utterances/emotions) cause i don't go downloading them anymore.

how nice if it rained money.

2:32 PM

Thursday, December 01, 2005

someone get me nike dunks, a new cool big spacious hippy schoolbag, baggy polo shirts and flipflops from elle active or just sportswear sandals.

AND A BRAND NEW BIG SCREEN PHONE WITH MEGAPIXELS PLEASE.

i think i'll go watch the match at pcc today. sHo cOoLx wOrX.

4:10 PM

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Felicia studied in Dunman High School, loves elmo, is a major drama addict and is a cake lover. She has quit coffee even though she loves it.